Apr 17, 2007

Can I ?



I can't expect everyone to behave the same way as I do. Can I ?

I can't expect everyone reciprocate my acts of friendship. Can I?

I can't expect to be accepted wholly for who I am. Can I ?

I can be lonely even when I am not alone. Can I ?

I can't stop feeling used and discarded. Can I ?

I can't always be the detached emotionless person, that I seem to be.Or Can I ?

I can't afford to see through people . Can I?

I can't give up fooling myself. Can I?

I can't expect the tears to dry up each time I cry.Can I ?

8 comments:

musafir said...

There is a certain amount of personal intransigence that one develops with trying to be honest, with oneself and everyone else. And there are times when this refusal to compromise comes into question. I can see that this post is your own way of handling those questions :-) ... No self-promotion, but this post brings to mind something I wrote a long time back -

I thought I wanted to be an island.
I thought wrong.
I thought I could stay an island.
I thought wrong again.

Does that make sense in the context of the post? And that photograph is too brooding {even for a blogger like me :D}

Karthik said...

Yeah - The photo wud have been better had it been bigger !!

The Soliloquist said...

musafir:

"personal intransigence that one develops with trying to be honest, with oneself and everyone else"..

Yes. But dont you think that honesty is the basic attribute of any real relationship? But its has this uncanny ability to lighten as well as burden one's mind.

Your lines do reflect a part of my sentiments... Would like to add a few more lines..

I thought I wanted to leave my island.
I thought wrong.
I thought I could leave my island.
I thought wrong again.

Reminds me of an Simon n Garfunkel song... "I am a rock.."

Guess us loners are caught in this eternal wrangle.

That Photograph was my wallpaper for many months. Wanted to put it up. But wasnt feeling sufficiently meloncholy to write a brooding piece till now:-)

Karthik:

Enlarged it... :-)

aravindh KRISHNAMOORTHY said...

To Add:
Throught these lines you portray a person who thinks a lot - perhaps about things he has failed in; perhaps the one who's always interested in rationally explaining the things that have gone wrong.
What I've observed in such people is that unrequited love or relationship is devastating. If this write up is for yourself, then, Omg!

Feni said...

Answer: you can..sometimes :-P
nice write up as always :)

~feni

The Soliloquist said...

@arvind:
Yes, the write up is for me. Its just a phase, that I go through every now and then :-)
I find unrequited love poetic. A sort of worship. One wouldnt do that unless one values the other that much. That makes it poigant.

As for other relationships yes, it can be devastating, for some time. But, then relations aren't built overnight.

@feni :

Yes I can, at most times. :-)
Just that, the few times I can't hurt a bit.
Thanks :-)

EnGeetham aka "My Song!" said...

"You dont expect me to stop, change or not go on? do you ?"

~SuCh~ said...

@ G :
I do.. Mea culpa :-)